Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Oh Dear ♫ 10:40 PM

Anywayss, he's had a crush on me since sophomore year and it's driving me nuts. Last year, he gave me this huge teddy bear. This year, [today] well, he kinda did something different... This is how it sorta went...
Sonya: [[Covered my eyes]]
Chinky: [[Doing geometry seatwork with my
groupmates]] Ugh! Noo!! Not now, please? Not now!
I'm busy!
Emman: [[Suddenly grabs my hand with his
cold ones]] Chinky, I know it's way too early for this,
but here. Happy Valentine's Day [[Puts awfully loose
bracelet on my wrist.]]
Sonya: [[Removes her hands from my eyes]]
Chinky: Thank You... [[Says it reeaallyy soft]]
Sonya: Say thank you!!
Chinky: Urgh... [[Says it louder]] Thank you..!
Ugh! seriously! He could've gotten me chocolates! :p
Anywayss.. Now that I think about it, I kind of appreciate that someone actually likes me. It makes me feel loved, if you get what I mean, I mean yea, I've had a couple of guys like be in the past, but not like how Emman does right now. Emman actually cares. It makes me feel special when he treats me like that, but it makes me feel really bad when all I do to him is... well... nothing...
I just want to tell him straight forward that I don't feel the same and that I never probably will. I don't want him to keep having these weird feelings for me when I know that all he's going to be is hurt.
But hey :D it's his choice :p Hw knows i don't like him, so maybe i'll just let him be. I don't wanna take his happiness away xD
By the way, for our Banquet [prom], I'm gonna ask him to dance with me. Yep.. It was my friend's dare. She dared me to either dance with Emman or Justin. Well, I don't want to dance with Justin, it'll make me feel weird after I told him I liked him. We used to be really close, but after I told him, things have been weird between us. At least Emman, I can still talk to him. Unlike Justin, I can't even look at him straight. He doesn't even know I don't like him anymore. :p