Monday, May 12, 2008
Imperfectionist's Dream [part 2] ♫ 4:18 PM
Well, I've told you all about my "main" dreams. Like me wanting to be an actress/a best selling author. But I haven't told you everything yet.
Here's something I have never told anyone before. I've been wanting to go to NYU for college since I was a freshman in high school. Yep, it seems impossible, and I think it is too. Soon, my dad will be asking me where and what I want to take up for college. If I tell him I want to go to NYU and take up arts or literature, I'm guessing he's going to tell me that I'm not being serious about my studies, especially that it's college. He's gonna go on telling me that it's impossible, it's expensive and that it's not a good course and stuff like that.
If only my dad wasn't so... "dad-ish"... I mean, he can act like a dad, but he's so... well, let me put it this way, he's never home, he has a girlfriend, he doesn't even go to work, and he never even ever tries to have fun with us four kids. I know we're all old enough [12, 14, 15 and 18 years old], but he can't just leave us all alone at home 24/7. Well, back to the topic, all I want is for him to make me happy at least once. Since he's never actually there, why not help me with what I want instead of what he wants?
Well, I'll be starting acting with my best friend. Not as actresses on TV, but on the internet. YouTube. Ever heard of it? Of course you have, We're going to be taking videos of us acting every once in a while, and we'll be posting it there. We [Sonya and I] both want to become actresses someday. She encouraged me to act on youtube, but I convinced her to do it with me because if ever I do get discovered because oft that, I'm not doing it without her. So once our first video is up, I'm going to announce it here in my blog. So watch out for it. [=
[To Be Continued]
Monday, May 5, 2008
My Best Friends and Heroes ♫ 6:42 PM
I just wanted to do something since I'm bored, so I'll be writing about my best friends. To see their pictures, click on their names. [=
First off, my best friends. I have 4, two of them from elementary [Our Lady of Mount Carmel Montessori] and the other two from high school [University of Baguio Science High School] Here are my elementary best friends, but that doesn't mean they're not my best friends anymore [=
We've been best friends since grade 1. Well, let's see. How did we meet? We weren't classmates, but from the same school, same grade level. My mom was a computer teacher at our school when I was in grade 1 [6 years old] and since she had to stay there the whole day. I had to wait for her to finish work until 5 PM. I belonged to the morning class and was dismissed at 12. So whenever I got bored, I'd play with the kids from the afternoon classes. Then that's when I met Vanessa. And we've been best friends since then.
I love telling people that story, i have no idea why, but I think it's because that one time that I started accepting her as my best friend, i asked her 'Vanessa, who's your best friend?' Then she pointed my direction, kind of looked like she was pointing behind me so I thought she was pointing to someone else, when i looked to my back sitting there was the class valedictorian, Erinne, then i told her 'wow, lucky you! :)' then she said 'yup, it's nice being your best friend, it's fun!' then the bell rang, so she had to go back to her classroom. Then I thought I just heard wrong, maybe she said 'It's nice being her best friend.' Then the next day, we played in the little tikes [slides and stuff] then I saw Erinne sitting with other people, then I told Vanessa 'Why aren't you with Erinne? You should be with your best friend.' then she said 'I'm already with you.' Then yeah, hahaha! That's when I found out she actually pointed to me that day. [= Well, what can you say? I was 6 years old... ;]
Now that we're high school, we study in different schools, but hey, friendship has its ways, so we keep in touch and hang out all the time.
She's a great singer, so are her siblings. I remember grade 3 when I used to have a crush on her brother [Kuya Ivan] who was like two years older than me. Well, he really was cute. Hahaha!
Vanessa's a fun person to be with. Not really the tallest person you'll find, but she's really sweet and cute. Immature? I'd go for childish, immature sounds insulting. [=
We met in grade 5, although I don't think she knew my name at that time cause she was a new student. Then in grade 6 we became classmates, then boom! Next thing you know, best friends. She's really sweet. She's pretty and great at singing too. Well, we're not really best friends anymore, but I still consider her a best friend. I mean, why can't I? Just because I don't think she considers me as her best friend anymore, doesn't mean she can't still be my best friend, right?
We haven't seen each other in like almost a year if I'm not mistaken. But I won't let that get in the way, at least we're still talking. Like me and Vanessa, we study in different schools now.
If you ask me, Karmina and Vanessa are different people, but that doesn't mean I'll be letting that get in the way of our friendship. [=
Next are my two high school best friends:
How did I meet her? I'm not sure, but I think we met during our YDT [Youth Development Training] practice in athletic bowl [a place somewhere in this city], but she thinks we met in YDT practice in school. Hahaha! We're not sure. But honestly, Sonya has been the BEST friend ever. Well, maybe to her, I'm not really the best friend, since she has Stefi and Mariel, but I don't care if I'm the best friend she's ever had or if I'm even the worst. To me, she's my best friend, no one's gonna change that. [=
Oh, she's the best friend I was talking about in my first blog. Honestly, I don't like that guy for her. What if she ends up like me? Well, we'll just see what happens. [=
Anywho, Sonya's the prettiest girl in the world! She's a great singer too. She has an angel's voice, but she denies that she's pretty and a good singer all the time. Hahaha!
[More coming soon :)]
Imperfectionist Much? ♫ 10:51 AM
Imperfectionist? Is that even a word? Well, to me it is.
I don't like it when people try to act so perfect all the time. I mean, a person trying to make simple picture look pretty and perfect is fine. But when it comes to the extent wherein they want everything their way, that just ticks me off. I'm tired of being a quiet and shy person who won't even talk back even a little when it comes to situations like these, I'm tired of letting those perfectionists get in my way of everything. I want to at least tell them 'So what if your clothes are white instead of cream?' 'Stop worrying about what you don't have and start make the most out of what you already have.' I find it so stupid that people worry about these little things that they think will make things worse, when they can just think of what they can do to make things even better.
If you thought the french word 'moi' was pronounced 'moy' and someone told you that you were wrong and that it was actually pronounced as 'mwa.' Then OK. Stop insisting that you're right just because you want everything your way. You can't just go on living your life as a perfectionist. You can't live thinking that you can have everything your way. So what if you're part of an important group in school? That does not give you the right to think that you're always right. It doesn't give you the right to boss people around just so you can make things perfect the way you want them to be.
Well me, I don't like things perfect. A little crooked line is fine. A slightly different color form what you wanted is all right. Mispronunciation? So what? I like things a little different in my life, maybe even a lot more than different. I don't care if my hair doesn't stay in place. What if I break something by accident? It's not like I meant to do it anyways.
What I'm trying to say is that you can't live your life to be perfect. Imperfection is what makes us unique. So what if you make mistakes? So what if someone messed up their line in a class play? It's not like it'll ruin your life. It'll just ruin your perfection, but guess what? Who cares? [= You've got your whole life to do what you want. You've got your whole life to make up for those mistakes, so live your life as if there's no tomorrow. Don't worry about what if's and just go on with your life. Make boring fun. Make quiet noisy. Make perfect imperfect. Carpe Diem everything you do because life is a blessing, and none of us will come out of it alive. [=
Imperfectionist's Dreams ♫ 10:18 AM
My dreams, you ask? Well, first of all my ambition is to be an actress and/or a bestselling author. Actress meaning going to movie premieres, starring in a great movie, meeting other celebrities and all that awesome stuff.
Second, I want to have at least one of my stories published and loved by readers worldwide. It may sound impossible, but I've been dreaming of that since I started writing when I was 9. Then I started publishing my stories on the internet [FanFiction and FictionPress] when I was 11 then introduced fan fiction it to my friends when I was 12. But I keep thinking 'internet isn't enough' so I've been wanting to publish my stories as a book.
Third, my dream place. Well, since I love anime, Japanese music and Japanese food a lot, and most of the video games I've played were by Japanese, my dream place ever since I was 6 years old has been Japan. I've heard their music, I've seen the place and beautiful sights in pictures, I've played games, I've seen their work of art, now the only thing left is to see the place where those all came from, I want to go there and see everything in person.
My other dream place, of course is Los Angeles California. One reason is because Hollywood is there, but hey, that's not all. I want to see my mom again. She and my dad separated when I was 9. [Not divorced, since I think it's not allowed in the Philippines and it's also not allowed in our religion.] My little sister and I lived with my mom since then, while my older sister and brother lived with our dad. Then the time came, when I was 11, my mom decided to go to the States to work, but couldn't afford to take us kids with her, so we had to be left here in the Philippines with our dad. Well, I'll tell you more about that story later on.
Moving on. Fourth of all, my future. Yes, I dream of my future too. IF I don't become an actress, I plan to live in a beautiful apartment. Just me. I don't want to get married, yet I want to have at least one child. I want to adopt, then again no, since it'll be painful for the child's part. So maybe I'll put having a kid aside first. Well, where was I? Beautiful apartment all alone. I want to have a good job. Good enough for me to get a high enough salary to be able to pay my bills and all. Funny huh? Me, planning my future when I'm only 14 years old. Haha! I find it hard to believe that I think of these things so often. [=
Labels: actress, author, dream, future, imperfectionist, japan
Sunday, May 4, 2008
exPrincess Chinky ♫ 10:31 AM
Okay, I'm not much of a "blogger person", but my best friend told me it was fun and all, so I decided to try it out.
So during freshmen year, there was this guy that I liked. Well, my best friend liked him too. Then I found out he liked me back. I wanted to tell my best friend since, well, she's my best friend. But I decided not to since she likes him too.
Well, anyway, this guy (I won't mention names) we were never together as girlfriend and boyfriend, but we were together if you know what I mean. He was really sweet and all. He called me princess Chinky, he'd always tell me he loved me every time he'd say goodnight and in class, he always held my hand. Then he even gave me a frog [stuffed toy] for Christmas, he told me it was a frog prince. I gave him this little blue teddy bear and his mom told me he named it Chikob (a combination of our names).
Then during Christmas vacation, that's when i got close to his parents. They were really nice to me, they even invited me and my sisters to dinner one time. His mom told me that whenever he's not around, I could just kiss that frog and it'll feel like he's right there with me. It's funny how his mom can be so fun and act like she's just your age.
Then on Valentines Day 2007, he gave me a rose and a balloon. Then a week after that, i found him saying 'I love you' to another girl. To make it worse, when my friend borrowed his phone, she accidentally saw his sent items and saw messages of him saying 'I love you' to three other girls. How do you think you'd react if you were in my situation? Me? I got really mad.
Then we fought after that. I still don't know what I did wrong, but honestly, I'm glad that happened. Because then I realized how big a jerk he was. But you wanna know something worse? He likes my best friend now. My best friend used to like him, then started to like another guy just about last year. Then the guy i used to like suddenly tells me that he likes my best friend. Then rumor spread fast and my best friend found out.
She then starts to like him again. Our other best friend and I wanted to tell her that it was a bad idea, but hey, what could we do? We didn't want to hurt her. Then they started texting each other and stuff, then he starts calling her princess. Me and our other best friend didn't like this guy, i know i used to like him, but honestly I hate him now. Not cause of what he did to me during freshmen year, but a whole lot of other stuff he did to me and to other people. And because of him, we noticed that our best friend has been acting so differently. Well, she posted a bulletin on this site saying stuff like "He keeps telling me he loves me but I can't just lie and tell him I love him back." If she meant what she said, then that means she doesn't really love him. That made me relieved. But what if it's not true and that she only posted that bulletin because she was confused about a lot of things lately. But I really hope it was true, I honestly don't like this guy for her. She might end up like me.
When they started liking each other, he called her princess all the time in his texts, and like everyone read it and now, they're all calling her his princess, and she starts calling herself princess because of this. Whenever I hear it, I'm like "dude, I was his princess first!" Lol.. Not that I still like him, and it's not like I made it a big deal when he used to call me Princess, [not like her] but it's like it makes me feel bad that they make people think that nothing special ever happened between us. And it kind of still hurts me that he and everyone else who knew about us, act like nothing ever did happen between us and makes such a big deal about him and my best friend who doesn't happen to act like one anymore.
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