Friday, February 27, 2009
I know I can [= ♫ 10:07 PM
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me"
-Philippians 4:13

In first year, I had one failing grade during finals, but I had the comprehensive exam, which I think I passed.. Then second year, I failed one subject for first grading, but I got through alive at the end of the school year anywayss.. And now, let's see... I had two failing grades for first grading, 4 failing grades in second grading, and three failing grades for third grading.. I have to lower that to either two, one, or nothing or I'm out of Science High..
For this week, I've been sleeping late trying to do advanced reading and answering stuff in the book in advanced.. Then I end up getting sleepy in class [especially in the afternoon] and not listening to the teacher.
Anyway.. For the remedial classes, we get to choose what schedule to take and what subjects to take, i took Chemistry, Physics and Research since those are the subjects I'm currently failing, but I don't think i'll be staying awake for the rest of the week next week..
I try to wake up at 5:30 AM, get to school at 7, listen to teachers non stop until 5 PM, clean the classroom on monday, go to remedial classes at 5:15-7:30 PM, get home by 8, watch a little TV and eat dinner 'til 8:30, do my homework 'til 9:30, do advanced reading 'til 10, finish my chores until God knows when i'll finish everything and sleep at probably 11 PM which is NOT normal for me!
Now I'm starting to wonder if this is actually going to help.
I can't leave Science High, it's a really awesome school! I can get a MOA, sure, I can abide by a contract, but I have to make sure I get to pass every subject next school year, defend my Thesis which can't be a lame one like our I.P. this previous year and be more active! I went through the Circumcision of the Heart and I can't afford to have all that go to waste. I have to walk The Red Carpet fair and square. I promised my Angel that and I can't break that promise after having gone this far.
Urgh... Maybe Twinkle's right. Maybe I'm thinking too negatively. I can do this! I know I can! For me, for my Angel, and for everything I've been staying in the Science High for..! I'm going to walk on that Red Carpet, the real one. My feet are going to touch the soft surface of that carpet without feeling guilt or regret. I'm going to leave a legacy with my batch. I just know it. [=
The Red Carpet isn't just a rug. That thing is sacred to a lot of us. Screw that girl who stepped on it when I told her not to, she won't deserve to walk on it anyways. Forget that other girl who said it was just a rug. I believe what I believe and no one can do anything about that. [=
"It doesn't matter if the world is pulling you down,
with Christ, you have everything..." -Nick Jonas