Monday, July 28, 2008
The Imperfectly Perfect Guy ♫ 9:07 AM
"I've wasted a lot of time in my life by trying to forget you... Well, I just can't. Guess what? I thought of it and asked myself, why forget? It's not like it's wrong to love someone who doesn't love you back."
Pictures:
Those pictures are all him.. [= And no, I'm not a stalker [=
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Sorry for the long delay. School's getting very stressing, junior year isn't really the easiest year in high school.
Well, here's something I've been dying to write in my blog. Here's the story. There's this guy I've liked since the end of freshmen year. He's this imperfectly perfect, friendly artist with a cute smile that just makes my heart melt. I didn't realize that i liked him until after Jacob.
He was one of my closest guy friends in school and I kind of ruined it when I told him I liked him. I feel like I made a wrong move cause now I can't talk to him or even look at him straight. It's like we were never even friends to begin with.
When Arian told me that I should just tell him, I thought I should too since I thought he already knew anyway. Not that I'm blaming Arian, I'm blaming myself for even taking the risk. I just want to have one normal conversation with him wherein neither of us feel awkward talking to each other. After doing that, I know I'll feel better. I don't know if I can do that, but the more I know that he can't. He's one of those guys who are shy at the start and gets better when you get to know him more. It's something like that. It's like we don't know each other at all, and that's what makes me sad. We were really good friends and now it's all gone because of stupid me.
Good thing is that he doesn't hate me. He's still sort of my friend. And I still get to be in the same room with him without making it a big deal.
I told myself, don't stress about it. At least he doesn't hate you. [= I think I can fix things in no time.. [= I still have our friendship, my confidence, and the lab gown he borrowed from me :D which by the way, I will NEVER wash.. [=